therian

A comic of Whitewood holding up a mask that looks like a cat's face. He says, ''Y'know, it's actually kind of amazing I'm not therian. (But if I was, I'd definitely be a cat.) There was that time in like 2016 or something that I ID'ed as otherkin because of how profoundly alienated I've always felt...'' A little picture of a 6-winged angel impaled by 3 crosses and labelled ''I was angelkin,'' appears next to his head. He continues, ''...But learning that I'm autistic, and about Marx's theory of alienation, made that disappear for me basically overnight. (Awkwardly, I'm also an atheist.)'' The angel vanishes in a puff of smoke. Whitewood casually tosses the cat mask over his shoulder. He says, ''The thing is, I've always wanted to be a human being, I'm just... not.'' The focus shifts to an image of myself as a child playing with my stuffed animals, because I've always felt more connected to animals than to people. Whitewood says, ''The feeling may have grown as expansive as it is from how others have treated me... but I've had a lot of time to think and to heal. It's just how I am. Other people no longer treat me like I'm not human, it's just how I feel. I think it's a little funny I'm not therian as a furry with a life-long special interest in zoology.'' A comic page starting with White saying, ''So basically, what you're saying is: you're not literally 'not a human being,' just that struggling to feel like you belong makes you feel like you aren't.'' Whitewood replies, ''Yeah, pretty much. I thought autism diagnosis would help, but instead it highlighted how different we all are. Which is, like, a normal and good thing. But it didn't make me feel like I 'fit in.' '' White hums to themself thoughtfully. Whitewood continues, ''I don't think... ANYTHING can.'' After a moment, White says, ''Well. If I was therian, I'd be a rabbit.'' Starling appears to interject with, ''I'd be a wizard like Gandalf.'' Whitewood says, simply, ''Hell yeah.''


june 1, 2025

in the middle of drawing this, I had a moment where I stopped and thought, "what the fuck is the point of this stupid horseshit. what does anyone get out of reading this? this is fucking autiobio diary slop."

however, after a while, I decided that I'm allowed to draw pointless bullshit meant for no one. the simple reason this exists is that I enjoy drawing comics, but I struggle to think of things to put in comics. so I end up drawing stuff like this - kind of meaningless chaff about my life. it "could've been a tweet," but I wanted to draw a comic. because it's fun. if it's boring... oh well.

there is a fun-hating, internet-poisoned, redditor-opinion-having Annoying Tumblrite that lives in my head and shits on everything I make, but especially the stuff that isn't "meaningful" in any way. sure, there is actually some credibility to those criticisms, i'm not going to act like people aren't allowed to think critically about art or whatever. but i'm also allowed to have fun in the ways that I have fun.

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